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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Important Days

 Do any of you read XKCD? It matters not, but I it is where I found this picture and thought - well, that's not necessarily true. It lists days like Christmas,  9/11, the New Year, April Fools Day, 4th of July...
And that doesn't make sense. Now, I love Randall - the artist - but this posts kind of made me go - oh. He might not be aware of how diverse his readership may be. 
Not to mention that there will be days that are meaningful to specific people. Example: January 22nd is very important to me because it is the date of my birth. October 16th is important to me because it's the day I got my heart broken. February 29th is meaningful to me because it's an anomaly and I find it intriguing. 
Keep in mind that, if you read the blurb at the top of the picture, it has to do with books in the English Language. But still.
What days are meaningful to you? Are they the important ones from this calendar? Why are they meaningful? What significance do they hold?

Sunday, November 25, 2012

New Year's Resolutions

I was thinking today, and somehow I got onto the assignments we do in Spanish every year - a new year's resolution, in Spanish, done artistically. And honestly, I don't know what mine will be this year. I considered asking a friend if 'to go off-meds without suicidal ideation' was too... mature/personal for a school setting. But that's what I want. I know that a while ago I said ten mg/day of Fluoxetine, but that has since doubled. It still has little (if any) affect, but I don't want to go off meds because I don't know if I would feel worse or what would happen.
So.
IDK.

Friday, November 23, 2012

When Harry Met Sally

So I just finished WHMS and it was so good. So sweet. Not only was the plot good, in that it kept watchers going OHGOD JUST KISS ALREADY but the characters were well developed and
I just
You guys I want a Harry. :( but yeah. Watch it if you ever get the chance to :)

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

100 OHMYGOD YOU GUYS (also humanities vs. science)

Soooo this is my 100th post. I feel like I should get an 'official blogger' award or something. IDK.
Anyway, this post actually has a point. :)
On Google Plus, there's a picture that keeps coming up on my feed.
This one. The caption is 'comment - which are you?' or something similar. And I just want to say, I'm neither. I love binary and logic problems, and many parts of math and science come easily to me. But easy as they are, what I LIKE better are my classes dealing with humanities - history and english. I don't have favorite numbers, I have favorite letters. R, Z, O and B. My science teacher, Saint Campbell, says that he sees me as being very science-minded, when I know that I often make decisions based off of emotions and aesthetics. I want a lamp for over my bed, and I want the right one. Going shopping with my dad doesn't work; he's an engineer. He doesn't have as much of a need for aesthetic beauty, he prefers function over design. I understand that, but it isn't how my brain works. I can't look at Comic Sans font without cringing because it isn't pretty. Neither is Calibri. I always use Times New Roman because I cannot stand anything else.
So I'm not really either. I'm right handed, which means that my left brain is in control of that, but... I don't know. I doubt if anyone is definitely either.

I did my first Ikebana!!!

So proud. I mean, I hate it. Kind of. It didn't take me nearly as long as I had expected, though. Still! Elements! And colors! And stuff. I made a reflection video so. :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Things People Are Good At

My dad is good at doing things that I have been taught are wrong or rude
in front of me
like getting his phone out at a recital
that my sister could have been performing in, had things gone a little differently.
My mom is good at being kind
listening to me
and then scaring me shitless when she's angry.
My sister is good at writing
at asking for my opinion on it
at helping me with dressing for events
and at making me cry when she's tense.

Monday, November 19, 2012

i... crap. (Challenges!)

YOU GUYS I FORGOT WHAT I WAS GOING TO POST AGAIN
GODDAMNIT
Oh it was the song challenge
okay here I go:
day one (Song challenge. (I'm doing two, a song and a lyric)):
15 Day Song Challenge
day 01 - your favorite song
 _How To Be A Heartbreaker_ by Marina And The Diamonds.
♡ PART 7: "HOW TO BE A HEARTBREAKER" ♡ | MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS

And Lyric:
 A song that reminds you of your first love.
Goodnight and Go, Imogen Heap
~
Why'd you have to be so cute,
It's impossible to ignore you,
must you make me laugh so much,
it's bad enough we get along so well
say goodnight and go.

~
Yep yep yep.
I'm doin' things, seein' people, goin' places.
All that shit.
Actually I'm mostly sitting on my butt at home either watching Bones or chatting with people on google plus because I'm sick today, but THAT CHANGES TOMORROW
unless i'm vomiting because i only started feeling a little bit pukey tonight
BUT IT CHANGES TOMORROW
I WILL GO TO SCHOOL

AND THEN I WILL PIG OUT ON THURSDAY BECAUSE THANKSGIVING AND ALSO WARBLERS
I'M SO EXCITED.

Yes. 
that is all for today.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

AHHHHHHHH I'M NOT FREAKING OUT

THE TEASER TRAILER FOR CITY OF BONES WAS RELEASED TODAY AND
OHMYGODDDDDDD
ALEC IS PERFECT
JACE IS PERFECT
SIMON IS PERFECT
CLARY IS PERFECT
DOROTHEA IS PERFECT
HODGE IS PERFECT
AND VALENTINE. OH, VALENTINE, YOU ARE TRULY THE MOST PERFECT.
JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS IS JUST REALLY ATTRACTIVE OKAY
ALSO LUKE AND MAGNUS
BUT THEY WEREN'T IN THE TRAILER
BUTBUTBUTBUT
YOU GUYS
ENOUGH REAL FOOTAGE FOR A TRAILER. I WAS CRYING.
SO PROUD.
ALSO MR. ZEGERS IS DONE FILMING AND I KINDA WENT 'oh. He's not really in this one GODDAMNIT' BUT STILLLLLLL
SIMONNNNN
AND CLARYYYYYY
AND AND AND JAAAAAACE.
I have to wait until August :(

APP UPDATE

I am in love with the revised blogger app. I had been using the iPhone/iPod version, but it got updated and works on iPad and I can switch the screen rotation and OH THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER. So now I might actually use the app and update more often :)

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Do you ever have that feeling where you want to make a statement, but you don't know what to do?

I'm having that feeling right now. I want to scream at the world, 'DON'T MAKE MY ANXIETY WORSE. I HAVE GOOD IDEAS, LISTEN TO ME'. But I don't.
People might appreciate it, but nothing would get done.
Goddamnit.

Binge (6 Poems at Once)

I didn't write any of them all that recently, but they're the best ones in my poetry folder.
there are six new poems up since my epiphany only not essay and i don't know how many people read that blog but i like it better.

Friday, November 9, 2012

I never realized this before.

People have feelings that accompany seeing them for everyone. It may be happiness of hatred or confusion, but there's always something. For me, though, I see them as colors. My friends are a Kelly green, a bright purple, pinky-magenta, and ice blue. I know who all of those colors relate to in my mind, and no one else does. I see emotions and people and memories as colors. Is that like synesthesia, or is there another word for that?
Whatever. I see my friends as colors. And fictional characters. Stiles is dark gray, Derek is crimson. Hermione Granger was always navy blue. Jace is burnt gold. Julian is a dark purple-red. Daisy was bright white with a touch of cream around the edges and in the center, a spiral of baby pink. Jay was gold and gray and red.
Is that weird? That seems really weird to me.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

OVER 1000 PAGEVIEWS.

You guys. OMG.
So I feel awesome right now. I have 1039 total pageviews :3
All I have to say is thank you.
I know I've been whiny and sad and I sometimes feel like I'm forcing my problems on whoever is reading those posts.
And even though I feel that way, you have all been so supportive. You've told me that it's worth it, to keep going, that yeah, he was a jerk.
So thank you, thank you, thank you. SO much.
I can't even.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Personal DNA

This.
...Yeah.
I'm not surprised. Low confidence, high attention to detail and style, low openness.
I get overcommitted and set in my ways.
Yeah.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Boost

www.sometimesrosewrites.blogspot.com
I'm posting a bit more over there. And I did actually start transcribing stuff from my journal. Maybe my reasoning is screwy because it's late, but I'm not taking it down. That's my policy. So yeah. Go check it out, maybe?

Friday, November 2, 2012

Damn NBC.

Animal Practice got cancelled. Screw NBC, it was good. Also Justin Kirk's mom (her name is Sam or Samantha and she's like super nice) is like my aunt's good friend and she's a nurse and she takes care of my grandma when we're on trips. And I know Justin's niece. I went to Mariah Arts with her. Rawr.
No but seriously, it was good and there are only ever gonna be eight episodes and I want moooooore, dammit.
It had a monkey, you guys. An honest-to-god monkey. It's name was Dr. Rizzo and it was a sassy monkey. And Angela! She was like, super funny. Damn NBC.

I don't understand.

Why can't I feel like everyone else? Why can't my life be the fairytale everyone thinks it is, thinks a girl's life is and should be? Why can't I be perfect like they tell me to be?
Why is my heart too big to ignore people's problems but too small to even deal with my own? Why is normal impossible for me, much less my clearer-minded friends?
I don't get why I can't have what I want. Maybe I don't deserve it. I don't deserve a lot of things. But can't I at least feel like I'm not the one girl who wore pink when we were supposed to wear yellow?
Can't I be the one who blends in? It's not like I don't make an effort.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

ROBERT PATTINSON SINGS?

Oh I see how it is.
HE'S REALLY GOOD, DAMMIT.

People think I like pop.

They're wrong. I really like indie music. Birdy, Marina & the Diamonds, Florence + the Machine, Emily and The Woods, The Staves, The Honey Trees. I don't know. I found a bunch of new bands last night, the latter three, and that's the kind of music I love. It's all unsigned British singer/songwriters and they're all incredibly talented. I like knowing things that other people don't, trivia, and they might be why. When I first discovered R5, no one had heard of them and I was so proud because they seemed like they were MINE.  But then Ross got on Disney channel and I was really excited, but I can't say that they haven't changed at all. Their style is different and honestly, I'm not sure I like it as much.
Whatever. I'm weird.