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Saturday, January 12, 2013

DJSSKAKDJSLAKFJ VICTORYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

MY JEDWARD CD CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY
I HAVE VICTORYYYYYYYY
IM SO EXCITEDDDD
(End Jedward rant)
(Cue everyday superstar lyrics)
She got hips like shakira
Lips like Angelina
Twisted like gaga
Dances like Madonna
She got that boom boom like Britney
Swagger like beyonce
Babe dont you know that you are
My everyday superstar
Everyday superstar
Everyday superstarrrrr
She got that chemistry, chemistry
Mixin it up
She keeps on sendin me
Sendin me
Over the top
She got that chemistry, chemistry
Mixin it up
She keeps on sendin me
Sendin me
Over the top
She got hips like shakira
Lips like Angelina
Twisted like gaga
Dances like Madonna
She got that boom boom like Britney
Swagger like beyonce
Babe dont you know that you are
My everyday superstar
Everyday superstar
Everyday superstarrrrr
Superstarrrrr
She's my everyday superstar
(End everyday superstar lyrics)

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

... NOPE.

Winter break is over, and school starts tomorrow, and I don't want to go back. I need to go back, because it's school, and truancy, and blah blah blah, and because I need to be there for a friend, but it's a Wednesday and I dislike Wednesdays a lot. Not as much as Thursdays, but I still dislike them. My classes are boring on Wednesdays. Not to mention that it's the first day back so my teachers will all be like 'this is what we were doing and if you don't remember everything we learned the day before break I'll send you to the bench' and just shoot me please. I don't wanna go back.
I honestly don't have a good reason to finish this year at NOVA, either. There are exactly three people I still want to be around, and I only have one daily class with one of them. Otherwise, even like the play or a really good project wouldn't be effective incentive for me to stay. There are seven people I can think of off the top of my head who I don't want to be around, like, ever, and how do I deal with that when they don't know and I can't tell them because our school has enough drama as it is.
Ugh. I wish it were easier.
On another note, I'm now taking sleep meds on school night because I have a fucked up sleep schedule and nothing works and my parents and my teachers like it when I go to school, even though I dread it because I'm sick of interacting with people who can't see a way to get through their own shit. This might sound hypocritical to some, but I always know how. I just don't always do said things because like I said, interacting with people is hard.
So yeah.
Apparently I've returned to I WILL DUMP MY EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE ON MY READERS HAHAHAHA so I'm sort for that.
But you know what
My blahg, my rules.
I can be as emotional as I want. :/

Holidays

Holidays are hard.
I love Christmas. I do, I love it so much.
So December 26th is a hard day to wake up on because I know that I have to wait another three hundred and sixty four days for Christmas to come around again.
When I say 'hard' it's really more like 'harddddd' with all five of those d's, because it's not just that day, it's the next and the next and the next and then, on the thirtieth, I realize, oh. It's going to be 2013 in two days. It'll be a new year and a fresh start.
So when January first comes, it's even worse. Not only do I have to wait three hundred and fifty whatever days for Christmas, but nothing is different. The weather is exactly the same as yesterday's. I am the same age, plus one day, I probably haven't grown a significant amount, and neither has anyone else. Nothing is different, and yet our society treats it like an entirely new entity that we have to treat delicately, like it's breakable and it could go so wrong it would destroy us all when really,
really?
It won't be that different from last year.
The only thing different is one little digit in the date, and the fact that we have started a new cycle of orbiting around the sun which - if I may point out - we have nothing to do with.
The idea of a "new year" is kind of futile. Things are just the same as they were before.
It's just astrology/nomy (IDK which, whatever) and it doesn't matter anyway.
I'm surrounded by the same people.
It's not like it's going to get better.